A Co. Armagh man has opened up on his daily battle with depression and why it’s the “most horrible place to be”.
Paul McCabe, a father-of-three from Lurgan, sat down with Armagh I to talk frankly about his torment, fighting against dark, dark thoughts and the help he eventually sought in his fight back against the crippling condition.
“After years of pretending I was fine it got that exhausting I had to hold my hand up and I had to expose my soft underbelly,” he said. “I had to go to the GP and say I’m in a really bad place and I’m pretending not to be – and that’s exhausting.”
Paul speaks about how he turned to alcohol – a sheep in wolf’s clothing – but it was all he could do to numb the pain.
“I would wake up most mornings between 4-5am and the minute I wake up there’s a feeling of dread – it’s almost like I’ve done something…”
Watch this truly powerful and emotive interview with Paul in its entirety here…